If I could sooth every ache
stop every tear
turn sadness to joy
show fear as hope
heal the pain of heartbreak
I would
You are the light in my world
In your cocoon of my heart
I would see you become all that you desire
If I could sooth every ache
stop every tear
turn sadness to joy
show fear as hope
heal the pain of heartbreak
I would
You are the light in my world
In your cocoon of my heart
I would see you become all that you desire
I’m a creature of hope masquerading as a cynic
A creature of joy masquerading as depression
With you, I am whole
With you, I am weak
Break the world with me
Dance with me
There is only the darkness and you and hope
Sand whips
Flays flesh
Scouring out impurities
Reducing, piece by piece
Until only the wind
And the passing of my screams
Remain
The long road is a song I’ve been working on for awhile now. But its interesting, because most of my songs are autobiographical. However, this one isn’t. This is one that I pieced together from disparate partial lines I wrote during poetry month. Once I found the voice, the cadence and the rhythm, the lyrics fell into place. I just thought that was interesting, the process I mean.
I’m busy falling in love
You’re busy walking away
Its this painful silence
At the end of a pain full day
I’m busy falling in love
But you’re busy walking away
My lips are the fire
But I cannot kiss you to stay
My heart is lost and rotten
And always I’m forgotten
Some days you hold me closer
And always I’m the loser
You were my four leaf clover
Thought it was my lucky day
Now we are long dead, over
And I’m always walking away
Now I always walk away
You taught me to walk away
I’m busy falling in love
You’re busy walking away
Its this painful silence
At the end of a pain full day
I’m busy falling in love
But you’re busy walking away
My lips are the fire
But I cannot kiss you to stay
Like a cat luxuriating in the sun
Rolling and purring
Kneeding and needing
Desire only grows
One word and I’m yours forever
A palpable, heavy connection
You are worth every second
I dreamed that I was at PAX. It was the final round of the Omegathon and me and my friends were up front watching. And we were talking about something or other when I get some information that this person, this woman that holds my interest and has for months, this amazing person who I would do nearly anything for might need help.. I find myself describing why I need to get to her. How she’s so important, that even though we are only talking and never met in person, she means the world to me. I say that I am going to her even though I don’t have the means, since I’m on vacation, at the end of it. I take off and get on the train, there are all these people I’ve known there and when I tell them that I’m going to go get this woman, who I then realize I love. My friend comes up and says that some of the Movers and Shakers at PAX heard me since we were so close to the stage and the they provided plane tickets and other things like a place to stay. Everyone is so happy for me except my parents. They hate the idea, they try to keep me from her and I call them out on the evil shit they’ve started to believe. We have a giant fight in full view of strangers and friends. They shun me, disown me. But it doesn’t matter. Only she matters. My friends offer me places to stay, give me support, all to help me get to her. I get on another train. I’m going to her. My heart happy and full. I don’t know what the future holds, but if she’s in it, I’ll be happy.
I’m not going to rescue her, the feeling is that we are rescuing each other. Or she is rescuing me.
A slip of
The loss swells to
Beating heart
Drowning breathe
Your hand
Your heat
Soft rise and fall
Angelic
Home
Curve
Need
Mine
Bare metal against skin
Sharp indentation as chain bites into hands
The soft cold feel, silk across eyes
The feel of fingers, moving in slow circles
The flat of a blade, following the same path
Hand settling in, the feel of thumb against throat
The pressure, hinting but never quite cutting off breathe
A line of fire, the wet meets cold air
The slow press of him
His weight pinning
Slowly entering the place of rightful worship
Blaze of heat throbbing inside
Teeth scraping and biting
Grinding in, marking her as owned
This lingering taste of her
Slides away as he slips free from sleeps shackles
Your eyes smoulder
Twinkling like glass in a fire
Dare I touch what will slash me open
What will burn and torment me
I find my desire is unabated
Meet me in the emergency room.