It gets harder as time wears on
Pulled forward by obligation rather than desire
Unable to look beyond
To else but quiet
What other than peace could I desire
When fatigue rages through
Devourer of all but itself
Leaving black flame
To trace its way through veins
Last reckless journey
Back to the beginning
Back to the solace of dreams
Where mountains and hope mix to sand
Find open arms and wide hearts
Black coffee and cold mornings
Mispoken fumbles made cumbersome
Hurtful by distance
Still
Truth is truth
And love blooms in still soil
In hearts made heavy
Luxury of the unknown
Wake up
Not wondering
Some stranger, some ‘friend’, some coworker
False praise of unwanted innuendo
Condescension dressed up as aid
Hurt feelings for being my friend
Danger from those you like
You love
Normal
Broken world
Simulation left to bored sadists
Ponder the ways
To break again
A world so shattered
Will it even notice
Skip time
Nightmare to nightmare
Hour to hour
Waking up to an empty bed
Staring at the clock
Each hour sliding past
Waking again and again
Each moment furthering from you
That nightmare which makes waking seem paradise
Confessions made to the empty air
Tears shed in agony
Refuge broken
Sleep fades
Time to get up
Time to cast against the wheel
Made to love
Made to break
Cold seeps through cloth
The city hums and growls
Too quiet for want
Too tired to reach
Grasp hands
Settle into sleep
Carried into dream
By the stark need to be near
Woke up with a head full of pain and a heart full of turns
Dream lives of lonely and thirst
Of hopes found in destruction
Of ghosts made younger and love made whole
Spinning plate capitalism
Faster and faster
Before the shatter
Before instability robs us of even the illusion of control
Sad goosebump shiver
Brain flairs in pain
Followed into truth
False pretenses build bridges
The memory of a memory which itself flares into pain
Last pleasure stolen
Fateful illusion won’t you hold my hand
For want of you I’m dying by inches
Itching for command
Knowing the only command I’d give won’t be followed
Leadership dilemma
And behind it all
That bone deep ache we learn to bury
And a craving for lemon cake
It’s hard to think beyond the next step
The next sleep
The next day
I’ve somehow lost those moments of space
Those silent minutes which roared and shook so loudly
Only time to spare a small smile at the croak of bird
To fawn all over a cat
Or wave like a maniac to a dog in the window
All just gestures of echoed love
Reflecting back to you
Words fail and falter
When alls said and done
Silence stretches out
Unwanted attenuation
Devour more and more
Each step towards home
Narrows the possible futures
Collapsed waveform
Looking for that one more moment
One more perfection
One more leap made
From the nebulous possible
To the simple completeness
Tired mind
Sifting through
One more word
Framework for a future?
Time slipping by
Drifting out
Forming waves
Crashing into a future
With you
Destination and journey unfurl
All that was becomes prelude
To an is
That is us
A few steps more
Times passage marked by love
And all will be changed
All in
Always
Lyrics yet to be sung struggle out
Yearning to quiver and shake
Swallowing back syllables
No voice loud enough to be heard
Stifled
Fighting for breathe
Pleading eyes
Begging to be known
That distant air
Promises made
Always one more to keep
One more to make whole
Distant thunder
Storm blessed
Sky drawn
Woken anew and shift gold
Breaks broken
Arrows flown true
Time for us
One more turn on the wheel
Pelgris 