Bathe me in the glimmering dark
A breath
Away
From death
Sing me your praises of fallen nights
A drink
Away
From drowning
Kiss me your kindness
A dance
Away
From waking
These dreams I’ve lost to living
These words rasp out a life
Trouble chase but I’m not running
I’ll wield the blade of strife
What do you say when all the words have been said
When the sound of your footsteps walking away seem to echo
What do you say when you are still hopeless, still deeply, deliciously, precariously, in love.
When you tell them every day but only in your head because they are gone but in a maybe temporary way and your heart can’t let go.
What do you say?
Love is a conundrum, a puzzle I can’t solve, a path you cannot walk alone.
Are you so present in my head because of my feelings? Is it metaphysical and our tie is feeding back to me your feelings? Are we just fools? Me for loving, you for silence?
Or am I only allowing the deep river of my feelings to cloud what is real?
My heart hurts today
Because my love is eternal
Because she cares for me more than I know
But doesn’t love me
And I can’t find my way to keeping her out
Don’t want her out
Just want her to stay
To walk in my secret places
And know she is home
When I love
it burns as molten salt
tracing it’s way through veins and capillaries
bursting from my hands and tongue and eyes
a torrents rush of passion blazing
shattering incandescent
I pour myself into you expecting to be met
to cavort with similar passion
instead find hollow tubes or cool waters
that swallow all that I am
give nothing back
until empty
confused and broken
I am discarded
If I could be your monster
I’d dance you to the river
that we may both drown
or cadence test and timing bound
slip skin and become one
bound round and round
let devour your mind
slip into dark places
touch the deepest, most lurid desires
I guarantee, I won’t be shocked
keep your course by my side
be us monsters together
dance the moonlight
in blood and abandon
The tenderest of truths
is the faintest slip of a lie
A truth withheld
becomes the well of tarnished voices
Until
At break
Effluvia pours free
Drowning dreamer and dream
A truth spoken
Cuts clean
A blade slick with blood
Cut my flesh
A thousand times
I’ll not fester in secret
I’ll be your truth
If you’ll be mine
I’m a broken record
I’m falling in love with you, love with you, love with you
I’m skipping out of the best parts
Cause all I see is you, all I see is you all I see is you
I just want this one to last
But I can’t stop my heart from thinking
Can’t stop my heart from thinking
Can’t stop my heart from thinking
About falling in love with you, you, you
I’m just a broken record
Singing to the night
Just a broken record
Singing for the light
Just a broken record
I’ll never be alright
I’m falling in love, falling in love, falling in love
And I cannot sleep at night
Just hold me until it’s right, until it’s right, until it’s right
I’m just a broken record
Stop the needle before I’m done
I’m just a broken record
I know I’m not the one
But I just can’t help
Just can’t help
Just can’t help
Falling in love with you
There’s a part of me that will always yearn for you
though I know you don’t think of me
a part that always wonders what if
though I’m not who you want to see
a part that spins the possibility
though you’re already walking away
a part made of hopes and memories
though it was never me in your eyes
A madness, a sharpness, a bitter kiss
Loved hard, loved true, loved only
Sitting on a bench at the edge of the road
In the last light of sunset
Something in me feels broken
Like some sensor is flawed
I keep seeing you
In every aspect of my life
But past is passed
And I’m looking for the new dawn
But instead only this unrelenting light pours down
Illumination pinning me
A butterfly trapped to a board
I reach but I falter
Strength departs
And only plans make way
Light fading
No moment of transition
Only an end
Unwanted
This fade
this falter
this slip
Drink wild
drink deep
drink death
Hope beats
hope cries
hope sleeps
Wake dreams
wake needs
wake scenes
Let dance
let kiss
let linger
Turn away
turn away
Cut strings
Pelgris 