I don’t chase. If I ask and you say no or not interested, I don’t ask again. I was talking to a friend of mine, a woman, and I was telling her why a relationship I had last year ended. We were talking, the person I was dating and I, and they said they were afraid to tell me something.

You know me, if it makes you afraid do it. So I tell them to say it so we can talk about it. They tell me “I’m trying not to fall in love with you.” My reaction: What the fuck! Why would you not want to fall in love with me!? I’m amazing. I’m not fighting falling in love with you. I said to them “I’m not mad, and thank you for your honesty” because what the fuck else am I going to say? Anyway the relationship went downhill from that point.

So my friend says, “My girl dictionary tells me that that phrase means that they were saying to chase harder.” Huh!? I’m all in, in a relationship. Examples: sexual sensual poems, gifts that are spot on, daily communication, instant response, always there, always available, hanging out and dates, hell they met some of my friends. Anyway, I’m all in, every time. So I tell my friend, “I don’t chase. If I asked you out and you said yes, and we go on more than 1 date. Then I’m in. For however long we last and as serious as you will allow.”

I find it funny, because I do ask out vanilla people if I think we are compatible or would be fun. And when they say no and I say ok and walk, I think they may be confused. I know for damn sure they are confused in the relationship. I don’t need to chase you. I’m not looking for sex. I can get that wherever. I’m looking for something deeper, something interesting. Ideally, a master, me, and a submissive, and whoever else as long as we are primary. If I’m wishing for situations here. Anyway, that’s the thought that occurred to me while driving home and I thought I’d pull over and write it before I lost it.