poetry

Twirl slow turn

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To want for wanting
A simple kiss burned through with needing
Desires unrealized for the dreaming
For who would kiss the flame

It seeks to devour
To transform self and else
But needs a fuel for burning
Having lost all truth itself

Comfort and steady
Steals the hope from our hearts
Holds just enough
Just barely
To keep one foot in front of the other

Forward is the only way to go
Complacent whispers a story of good enough
That in the night rings solemn
A mournful bell slow to wake
False ring and disappointed half smiles

Never quite forgiven
Unable to forget

Just kiss and wake me up
Slow acceptance of a beaten
Beating
Heart

It’s time…maybe

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Fine lines trace patterns across skin
Slight depressions marking path of pains gone by
Never quite forgiven
A river burst its banks
Traverse well worn paths
Forgotten in the swallowing dark

This silence that shatters

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This silence that shatters
Shivers
Nerve endings breaking
Pulse by pulse bending

To in tremor
Wake as one
In step slip unsaid
Tongue shod in
Clumsy brass
Too heavy and too sharp

Crack as glass
Pebbled sand hiss
Wrapped
Mouth and eyes

By
Silence

Not a minute less than forever

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I have not a childish need
Or teenagers lust for you

Your form
Though attractive
Is not what is sought

I’ve see you in meadow
In shade
In dappled drop

Across peaks
Down chasm
In flame and storm

Your head held high
I seek you

Not for a moments pleasure
But for a lifetime of pain

A pain born of minutes in anger or seconds without you

This grasping of nothing
This uncertainty told tale
Instead

Say yes
For you,
I’ll bend the world

Problematic

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To be many things
Torn in different directions
Not respected for the core

People don’t believe
But the world rolls in
Blindness and disbelief
Notwithstanding

Words weave but not well enough for art
Just a blind dog snuffling in the garbage for scraps

To see is to know
But the truth is rendered silent
It does not echo what you hold
In your heart

Easier to fight than to build
To break than to Mend
Though the field must be burned
Before seed will again take root

On repeat

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I repeat to myself
I want to die
I want to die
I want to die
This litany slithers and drifts
This hope to stop existing
This dream that something
Anything
Will stop my mindless gears from turning
Until the crushing weight of my own words
Set my conscious mind to planning
But it was a lie
I just want the pain to stop
So at least
I’ll stop burying the blade deep in myself
And say
I am loved
Even if it probably isn’t true

Unfaltering,

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Day in, day out
light under the moon
sun ablaze in the sky
doubt not, my love

Though I break
though I’m broken
I know the path I’ve woken,
but though I may be uncertain

Day in, day out,
light under the moon,
sun ablaze in the sky,
doubt not my love

Kiss under the moon

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Where is life
where is death
ask me again when all darkness bled
and shadows shift
and shadows fled
life calls in answering
pained in breathe
Sought where seeking
Bought
Last light
Before the coming dawn

Reoccurring hope

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I find myself thinking about you.
And, of an instant, the flash as you are in my arms and I’m kissing you
Lips pressing and holding the words left unsaid
Tongue slipping against tongue
like a dam breaking
The torrent
the flood of might have been collapsing down to this moment
where our choice is each other
and a fierce joy for each future minute
we will face unafraid
Secure in the knowledge
that we will face it together.

A step away

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I would dance a thousand lives
Swallow a thousand lies
But I’ll never be with you

The river carves
While we while the time away
Hoping for healing voice
But finding our paths to tragedy

Sin in hopeful tone
Long buried beneath
Traverse travails
Perhaps,  a chance
But
I am lost in the echo

Of remembering