On repeat

I repeat to myself
I want to die
I want to die
I want to die
This litany slithers and drifts
This hope to stop existing
This dream that something
Anything
Will stop my mindless gears from turning
Until the crushing weight of my own words
Set my conscious mind to planning
But it was a lie
I just want the pain to stop
So at least
I’ll stop burying the blade deep in myself
And say
I am loved
Even if it probably isn’t true

4 thoughts on “On repeat

    • Pelgris August 18, 2017 / 2:22 pm

      It’s a good thing to pull myself out of the spiral. Just, I don’t feel like I am loved. At least not how I see love. Or how I need to feel it, I suppose.

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