Blind light beckon through fog
Sounds muffled cries
Last darkness fades as hope withers
Dawn stretches out
Limbs aching
Bereft of soft touches
Smiles departed
Blood pulse through arteries clanging open
Hearts race
Excitement turned banal
Without love what’s the purpose
Pursuit and climax just dust
One more lonely night
Passed in dreaming
Nothing is real but the grind
Until smooth
Slipping away
Last tears fall
Into the quiet morning
Burn the world
And drown the sun
Bleed the sky
And shatter the earth
What was past is breaking
What is future haunts my dreams
And ever onward sits the raven
Perched above
Expecting
Waiting for falter
Waiting for ruin
Made broken
I tire
And waking is no blessing
For a man
Whose lived past his time
Nothing wakes in the palace of death
Where lives break and hearts die
Truths unveiled
From a river of blood
The leprous moon
Bays its children home
Light fades in the eyes of those chosen
Each turn and turnabout
Lost labyrinth
Quiet burns away
Time leeches the bright sun
Skies open in smiles
And nothing that was
Survives the wind whipped
Flaying
Savage knives turned into
And breaking
Final remorse
Before the last tear falls
Sometimes I think that my life is a path
Worn away
Wind and rain and casual travelers
All taken this care worn road
Erasing the lines
Until all someone might find beautiful
Is erased
Who will find their way
To marvel and dream along my haunted shores
No longer shiny or new
Who will follow to paths ending
The garden
Starving
Dying on the edge of love
Forgotten
But still
Tenaciously
Holding on
I take false breathes
Each one declaring itself to be perfect
treacherous heart beats loudly
Screaming to be set free
snap lightning synapse
Flashfire to eyes
Burning until
Buried in tears
Hopes drown in a sea of tomorrow
And I
In silence
Weep
I called this clarity
I called it sanity
It’s a barren empty
A field of endless days
Longing for more
Am I longing to feel
….
Anything
Is this my addiction
To pain
To joy
Or is this what I felt
Without the hope
Of a tomorrow
And now I’m self aware enough
To realize it
Some days other people are an agony
Fidget to get free
But even that’s better than sitting alone
There’s no freedom
My choices have led me here
To this barren earth
This windswept empty
Bereft of everything
Even fear
What’s left when even fear is gone
Joy is a thing of blood and bone
My heart is full of dust and memories
What fool would want a piece of pain
Drink my tears and end with sand
On this shattered plain
Beneath this bowl of sky
Pull forth stones
Presented in facet
Bloody
Covered in bile and muck
Not all are rubies or jade
Just diamond
Just common brilliance
Made precious by forced scarcity
Simple
Transparent
Valueless
Made wonderful by lies
By marketing campaigns
Fire pressed
Jade and jasper
Forged by seconds ticking away in a roar
Until we can’t hear ourselves think
Until this is it
And a shaped piece of steel and nitre
Splay me open
Crack my chest
There’s little enough left
A heart in tatters
Each new day cut slivers
Stuck in throat
Flowed out with tears come unbidden
Weaving a false tale of hopes realization
Fantasy without root
Just another sliver
An ache that never ends
Take what blood remains
Chest hollowed out
Filled with burnt ash
An endless well
I am tendrils questing out
reaching for connection
straining to directions
which once were home
just a hothouse bloom
slowly slipping into quiet
a last goodbye
a last hurrah
before the final cull
I am tendrils reaching out
And finding only
Silence
This silence that shatters
Shivers
Nerve endings breaking
Pulse by pulse bending
To in tremor
Wake as one
In step slip unsaid
Tongue shod in
Clumsy brass
Too heavy and too sharp
Crack as glass
Pebbled sand hiss
Wrapped
Mouth and eyes
By
Silence
Pelgris 