I called this clarity
I called it sanity
It’s a barren empty
A field of endless days
Longing for more
Am I longing to feel
….
Anything
Is this my addiction
To pain
To joy
Or is this what I felt
Without the hope
Of a tomorrow
And now I’m self aware enough
To realize it
Some days other people are an agony
Fidget to get free
But even that’s better than sitting alone
There’s no freedom
My choices have led me here
To this barren earth
This windswept empty
Bereft of everything
Even fear
What’s left when even fear is gone
Joy is a thing of blood and bone
My heart is full of dust and memories
What fool would want a piece of pain
Drink my tears and end with sand
On this shattered plain
Beneath this bowl of sky
Pelgris 