Insomniac drag

Sleep eludes me in my bed
As thoughts swim in the rarified air
Of what might yet be
But heart reminds
She sleeps curled up
safe
Deep within us
And though we wake
And are alone
hope and desire bloom anew

Last twitch

There a flower grows
The yellow heat pours down
From a blue sky, soft rain patters staccato against leaves
The soft loam, smelling clean. Fresh earth and the crisp green of new growth
Fronds reaching out to the blue. Sun pounding down they drink their fill
Dew soaked grass, orange gold sunset and the failing light
The first blush of the darkness found amidst deepening shadows
Soft hushed, sounds quiet, the garden cools in the night air
The stars shine. While across the sky meteors fall like tears
The triumphant moon, full and ripe, arcs ascendant in a loving sky

 

This is the poem I wrote as my last relationship was ending. I wrote a each line in remembrance, over a period of 20 days, as I do not walk away. But It was over. Eventually, when other romance looms heavy, even I must shutter the past. As I did today. Not everything beautiful lasts forever. But sometimes that ending marks the beginning of something better.

Nerve endings bloom

What do you say
when time is decay
Hope’s last echo fading away

Last thrill in the dying light
Cut ribbons of each slight
Bones worn thin from the night

Sounds echoing rasp
Opening the final hasp
Spitting vitriolic trash

Sleep evades
Frowns make way
And loss is all for wanting

Rhyming consciousness

Its a simple twist and burn
No life was spent to yearn
And making bread, make time
Faltering steps in the rime
Fled to the dimly lit
Market frozen split
Lay me down in pain
Then wake me for the same
Sanctuary in caress
Bound simple by the dress
Hope’s blazing sun
Smarter now to run
Bring me now enthralled
Before the innocent

Negative space

I miss the touch of your hands, even though they were only words
Only imagined
I miss the hot breathe of you against my neck, though only syllables marked your passage
I miss your moans, your cries of Sir, though simple pixels held in array
I miss you even though we never were

Reverie

Delicate counterweight spin
Drunk on the power of your pleasure
No innocence in this sin
Consume you in full measure
Flaws like scars perceive
Tracery writ across skin
In safeties guise deceive
Distinct, alive with passion
Sink heat through muscle to bone
All doubts have found to flown
And only we remain

Just a bit of Ennui

Written and rewritten
Erased
Start over, start again
So tired in the post lunch depression
Kiss me
Feel your heat against my skin
Convince me I’m real

Trouble breathing

So tired and shameless
Unhappy and aimless
This poet is stuck on repeat
Each phrase, mindless
Needing to rhyme
For reasons not mine
Just looking for a bit of the sweet
But too bitter now
Having lost to be found
I’ve long lost the sound
… Of your breathing
These thoughts of mine
In rhythm in rhyme
Can’t stop thinking
It’s the endings that pull me forward
But to what?
to what do I have to look toward
When all I am is without you
Better the end than the begin
Because then
At least I know where I stand
… Without you

A poet’s need

I have words to say
but I don’t know how to say them
I have lyrics to write but I don’t know how to play ’em
Its all jumbled up
in my heart and my head
Its all just mayhem
These poems I’ve read
Other people’s words twisted me round
From the path I have bled
The past feels real but the future uncertain
It all just wars, sinuous thoughts that fill me with dread
But sin, it’s a burden
Fallacious but salacious
When hero’s fall
And round back to beginning
Where words fail me.
As I have so often failed them.

Love with me

Love with abandon
With passion
With panic and pain

Love with obsession
With desire
With creativity

Love with totality
With inclusiveness
With precision

Love with lust
With sensuality
With finality

Love with soul
With tenderness
With attention

Love with hope
With positivity
With sunshine

Love with darkness
With secrets
With dreams