A little doubt starts it
An irritant, a nothing
Then desire, unrequited
Jealousy, heartache, hope,
joy, crash, euphoria,
experience, finding, losing
It all wraps around that seed of doubt
Tight and tighter
Hollow in the pit of the stomach
Ache in the chest
Quiet despair
A slope ending in ending
Something Breaks it open
Shatters the form
It all falls away…
Leaving the tiny seed of doubt
She moves
A grace of coltish charm
Full of restrained energy
Her raven hair
Sets mind to light
Though heart may join soon after
Her lips do bide
Not far from mine
Sparks and other choices
My voice to her
My passion turns
And I, Say Always
Love’s choice made
Bittersweet
But filling
Last gasp of day
Giving itself to the moon
A long held friend
Bound for simpler things
Without a compass
Or business plan
Guided by a heart
Full of love
And pain
Inflicted by silences
Taken for granted
A punishment for long ago pains
actions aren’t punishable forever
Words spoken, of forgiveness, not matched with action
Need this slot you fill rather than needing you
Why you put up with it is a mystery
Guilt he never lets you forget
Abandoned, silence, neglect
Bought a nice toy to perpetuate the myth
All is well, remember what you did.
Embraced by dark emotions, captured by them
Remember the light
Don’t fall for the allure of the comfortable
Just because the pains aren’t physical
Doesn’t mean it’s not abuse.
Let my words caress as I cannot
Asleep, on a blanket, beneath Autumn sky
No chance I’ll stop liking you, girl
You are never far from my thoughts
This cavalcade of days, needing you more
Days without you, not worth the time
An impossible hope coupled to impossible choices.
completely familiar
Caught in limbo
Between wanting and having
Between talking and touching
Stuck in amber
not wanting a way out
Or away
just trying to find my way
to
Shaped tendrils reach out snapping
Disturbed maelstrom whir
Each idea more toxic than the last
Flying apart
“Hold it together”
The long road
Each cautious step
Little by little
Against my nature
Made worthwhile
by the sound of your voice
Fighting, fighting to keep from jumping
Flying apart
“Keep it together”
I don’t know how we end
… I hope that we don’t.
What stranger in turmoils touch made bled
by bone, by sword, by roan
in skins own fever made whole
bound by rowan and switch
kiss me in glade
found in the slipping mist
called by lips
full of midnight and nightshade
Her settles me down
As much as I bring comfort
And I’m needful but scared to
Just waiting for yes, you
Her poetry for me
And I for hers
I’ve learned some caution
Not nearly enough
Our touches are innocent
Excepting the maelstrom of desire that fuels them
Our words hidden
And behind our masks, improperly fitted, flash looks and smiles that burn
We are shadows of dancing flame
Shifting, waiting
For your decision
Made behind the walls
Of your prison
here in this limbo
Time stands still
Just you and I
And all our baggage
But hearts made light
Words and deeds
with open arms
heart wide
for choices to be made
Pelgris 