I look for you in the face of everyone I meet. I get lost looking for you. They see in my eyes, hope and joy and the question. Is it you? They almost all duck there heads, maybe smile. Am I missing you by not being more direct? But how do you ask, have you danced with me in your dreams? How do you say what is needed for you to know it’s me without sounding insane? Without sounding as I do now. Should sounding insane phase me? I desire to dance in the aisle. Uncaring how I look, because it’s with you.
Author: Pelgris
Dance fallow
Music pulses into the shallow echos
burn hallow in bright fire
Lift broken from memory of dawns false hopes
soft touch sinking into dream
free constraint of the drift
first taste of drought in pleasures embrace
the kiss dripping honey
buried in the seeking
Slip
Soft murmurs frission silence
Cold seeps deep
Brittle amber
Song rolls from frozen lips
Rise graceful lies
Dip
Twirl in dance
Words caught
on tongue made thick
Seattle
I am officially in Seattle. If anyone else is and wants to hang out,email me at pelgris@gmail.com
Dreams precede
She waits for me when I close my eyes, delighted that I have come back to her. Who are you? I sent out a call and you appeared in my dreams. I can feel your lips on mine. The warmth of you next to me, snuggled down in bed under comforter. I feel the pull of you. But I don’t know to where. I cannot direct my feet when I know not the destination. The advice would be to allow the world to move and as it moves be pulled to you like gravity. And that’s wise. But the voice of experience says, you must find her and be with her. Life is fleeting it says and each moment should be lived in exquisite joy. And I want the latter but I have no choice but to follow the former.
How my dream ended
I walk up to a table at some kind of gala. I sit down and look at the sad young lady sitting alone. She’s beautiful. I could describe her, but all women I find beautiful are pretty in their own unique way. Suffice to say she was stunning. I say “hello, would you like to spend tonight with me? I have had a bad run of it and I don’t want to be alone tonight. Just be with me.”
She asks, “I’m not going to be your vacation fling.” she says it with an unturned lilt. Questioning and almost timid.
I smile crookedly and say “Not if you don’t want to be. Let us have this night. And in the morning if you want to leave you can, but I would much rather you stay.”
We sit drinking champaign. Small sips. There is a small orchestra sitting around. Like they know now one is dancing so why play when no one will listen.
I stand and hold out my hand, “Would you like to dance?”
She says, “but they aren’t playing any music.”
I say, “They will.”
And we dance.
The song we danced to:
Anger opens the door
I have defied gods and danced with devil’s
Drunk from the twin chalices of life and death
I have borne a blade into battle and shed blood
Watched friends rise and lovers fall
I have been darkness, been light, been shadow
I have see things history has forgotten and done things that would break your mind to know.
And you stand here trying to manipulate me. I am no mere child nor am I love struck. The niceties, the flow of words, the touch, the giving of time, these are the things I enjoy whilst in the throws of love and relationship. But when I wake? When the web of relationship no longer holds me? I am the other face. The cold face. I am the night given form, sharp, deep and full of hidden dangers. Manipulate me? You are a fool.
A heart sings, listening
Hold me close and closer
Kiss the war in my heart
Settle the maelstrom
Take my hand
As I am safe in your light
You are safe in my darkness
Seekers both of different mien
There are roads to travel
I would see them all by your side
Seattle
I will be in Downtown Seattle from September 1st through the 6. Let me know if anyone wants to hang out or talk.
Wait for me
Waking
Always more
Iterations repeat
Timeless
Freely given
Opportunity presents
Richness
Mystic journey
Ending in you
