I feel as if we are in that twilight time between life and death
A hung moon and night’s waning
That gray time in dark of night
When you are simultaneously aware of the coming sun and unsure that you will make it alive till then
Because this ends
One way or another
In hope, soon
Though long held pessimism says likely not
And we will plunge into deeper night
But even that will end
There is a hopeful fatalism in endings
At every end there is a moment of doubt
Right before something new begins
If darkness should fall
Remember
That’s just one ending
And what begins now is a choice we make together
As it ever was
end
Floating in the too wide ocean
End of day
Tired and aching
Arm radiates pain
Slow down
Molten glass
Past progress
Ideas from the times before
Playlist? Or poetry
Whichever costs the lesser
Each word pulled out
Leaving exhaustion to funnel echos
Too loud
Too quiet
Sleep weighs heavy
Uncomfortable but fading in the dubious comfort of the office
Bed calls out
But people there
Too loud, too much
And wanting aches just fading
Into frantic dream
Lost in these moments
Without
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Nightmares are also dreams – Fin
So, I will be the first to admit when I’ve made a mistake. And I made a mistake. The last interlude that was written should have been the epilogue to Nightmares are also dreams. That was how it should have ended. While I could write another piece it would be too much. Both storylines have reached a natural pause. So that is it.
I will be editing the story and reposting it in its entirety on its own page so anyone who wants to read it can read it completely. Though I do think some of the effect is lost because the story used the time between parts to create distance but there it is.
I will also be posting the audio version. I will do my best to get the voices right.
I feel like I should also state that all scenes of a sexual or BDSM nature are consensual and have been prenegotiated. Even the last scene in which Pel inserts himself into his sleeping wife. She has given her enthusiastic consent to this. Indeed, it’s intended to demonstrate Pel letting go of his inhibition regarding the state of consent of his wife and girlfriend. Both have given their consent. And if you have read the series you’ll know that there is always a degree of reluctance in Pel to “breach” consent. Even when, specifically, Sara has expressed enthusiastic consent. You can see it in her behavior and thoughts in those parts which are in her voice.
If you can tell that I think about my characters a ton, well that’s true.
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Snuffed out
She stills my heart with the slightest look
Stirring my blood with a grin
Her words warm and light a fire within
But we are never to be
We danced the flame
The illusion
Only you were ever safe
With each step my heart cut to ribbons
To adorn you in my love
Pull away
Dragging the pieces of me out
Last attempt to get a stay
Execution and the pain
Sadly, better than the emptiness of never was
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Broken on the wheel
My limbs burn as if on fire, tears flowing, trying to quench the flames, shredded, broken, and still want to hold you in my arms, a word, anything is better than the jagged silence, silence that begs for dissolution, the pain is all consuming, I had forgotten what this felt like, I had hoped to never feel this again
Pelgris 