I’m afraid
that today will be the day that I don’t cry
That
Today will be the day I don’t reach out
That
Today will be the day where I feel isolated
That
Today will be the day I can’t see tomorrow
That
Today will be the day that it won’t hurt to think about
That
Today
will be
the day
audio
Dissonant stream of consciousness
I’m staring at a blank screen, starting then stopping, erasing and trying to find words to describe this whirlwind of I don’t know and how to proceed and what am I doing and it’ll all be worth it and am I failing and not getting there and waking up early and she tells me I push and they say that I don’t and I am confused and I am certain and I want to move forward and I don’t know what forward is and it’s either falling apart or coming together and I can’t tell which and I am always strong but I’m not always strength and I seem silent but I need to speak and I don’t have any answers to the questions I ask and I’m waiting and I am impatient and I want the truth and I can’t seem to find it and I break but I’m not broken and I give in to my emotions and I can’t know what is the right time and I am embarrassed by things I can’t change and I hear Sir and I need it and all of this incoherence as I stare at the blank screen
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Elder Dreams-Audio
in silence bound
in seeking sought
where others bind
i was bought
when hearts collide and justice founds
my hopes do bide, in collision
sound siren call
revision
in loves sweet sigh
in voices raised
where heavens call
undertree did dance
and palm to palm
and join to join
praised by kine
in moments ere the fall
they seek, they find,
the burn is seasons rime and dragging feet do come to call and hopes are risen
ere the fall
but drink my wine and drink my blood
and we shall step above the sea to feast and dance our revelry
you seek a fight, we seek to feast and in the middle there’ rise a beast
in death we feast and seek the battle draught
in life we love and lust
break bread with us, break meek
but I am bound, as ever was, and in the silence
weep
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Ballroom-Audio
Tomorrow I will begin posting the audio version of the Story Ballroom. A heads up if you will.
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Winter Takes What Little is Left – Audio
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Morrigan’s Lament
This is the raw audio of a song whose lyrics I wrote. The cadence and phrasing are mine as well but influenced by my Bassist Jennifer, whose current Project is The Heartless Bartons . Obviously, she is not playing on this track because I recorded it at 3:30 in the morning and she is not around. The music and arraignment are hers so we share credit on all Darkness on Fire music to this point. Darkness on Fire being the band’s name. Just keep in mind that this isn’t a miked performance, so it’s perhaps not as forceful but it sounds good to me. Let me know what you think in the comments section.
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Ode to sorrow
there, into darkness, I walk
kiss me, taste me
the moment stands still
just me, just you
alone
Pelgris 