I’m waiting at the crossroads
Ashiver all with fear
The darkness has long fallen
Something felt draws near
Quiet muffles all
but the pounding blood
Leave me in the shallows
Leave me to the pain
But find me on the morrow
Between the dusk and dawn
Just sitting at the crossroads
Just looking all around
I have loved and I have fallen
Lived and I have dreamed
Just waiting at the crossroads
Waiting to begin
I go to sleep now, to dream of the woman who abandoned me. Who left me standing at the roadside without a word. She left as everyone leaves me. I’m not even angry. Leaving me seems as natural as breathing. No I’m not angry. I’m disappointed. I’m sad. Wracked with terrible sadness. But not mad. I love her still. How stupid, how fucked up to love someone who walked away without a word. As if I were trash. Maybe I am. A throwaway heart. Used to make one feel better until bored or something better comes along. For a long time, I didn’t open my heart to anyone. But at least I knew in my bones that if Morgan had had a choice she would have chosen me. Maybe she was it. The only one who could love me. No one else seems to, at least for any length of time.
I know all too little of joy
And all too much sadness not quite past bearing
Retreat to chemical slumber
where dreams betray
For they are of you
Early days of summer
bring heady release
caged from our slumber
stretch wide in sunlights fading
wings shake with frost
heat begins by dying
as winter counts the cost
Slow turn reveals concealed blade
A line of cold erupting fire
A step away
The dull throb of crimson life spilling into silk
Pains breathe quickens
Cold erupts, flickered flame drips
Thin line of reflected light
Illumation
Twist
Spring
Coil
Desires bow made
Present
Drink you down like wine
I hope she knows that she is still in my heart. That I love her and that is not going to change.
We now return you to your regularly scheduled author and poet
6 days ago we were fine. 3 days later nuclear wasteland. Don’t know why. Driving me crazy. I can’t go from 60 to 0 that fast. My heart hurts and I want to cry but I’m all out. I’m drowning.
My limbs burn as if on fire, tears flowing, trying to quench the flames, shredded, broken, and still want to hold you in my arms, a word, anything is better than the jagged silence, silence that begs for dissolution, the pain is all consuming, I had forgotten what this felt like, I had hoped to never feel this again
Pelgris 