Glimpses under the hood

This world is a broken place
slipshod
cracks showing through
the mummers farce of civilization
Light pearing through holes
as through a barricade
thrown up against anarchy
a thing of furniture and scrap wood
nailed together with the dismissed dreams
of the overeducated youth
vanishing opportunities in the persuit
where your best shot at freedom
is to work in the cubical farms of the new aristocracy
segregated by income brackets
and the one or two who break past those barriers
into rarefied heights
held as a example that it’s possible
meanwhile sweeping aside
the bodies who attempted the same
and fell broken
it’s not the systems fault
it’s ours
we created and fed the system
we grind ourselves in its gears
and call it progress or life
promises to tear it down
end when you become a part of it
and self interest kicks in
we need martyrs not leaders
we need people willing to sacrifice themselves
and their betterment
for the people around them
but instead we grind them to paste
gristle for the share cropper
tilling their cubicle
under the crushing debt
imposed by the society of more

Building character

buoyancy
float up to the rafters
smoke rings circling
chasing each other like the ghosts of butterflies
tired cursing drifts in this space
empty of us
it feels our lack
having never known our touch
this room settles
for other occupants
yearning for a family
one built into its planks and nails
one it never knew
just these poor substitutes
happy couples living happy lives
all candyfloss and no butterscotch

Strength bleeds backwards

There was a time before blood and bind
Before dance and bone
Where reverie wakes
And sky’s do groan

So lonesome
in the endless expanse
Made merry
Give chase

But burn back blades
Fire whips it’s frenzy
All control lost and only
In its absence noted

Shout surrender
Heart pounding
Straining for one last beat
one last hush of blood

Fear permeates
The quiet unsaid
Leaving potential lies
To churn out stomach lining

Waiting for the pustulmelous fragility to burst
Lost in thoughts that won’t cease
And the hardship that comes

Knowing your thoughts
Knowing that you are past bearing
That some words should never be uttered

And the only shelter
Is the arms of silence

Spent casing memories

Spent casing memories
Softly raining down to the wet earth
A thousand rounds per minute
Trying to overwhelm
Hard fought equilibrium

Easier to push them aside until I can’t move, waste deep in wasted ammunition
These rounds fall faster
Burying me neck deep
The smell of gunpowder and lingering cosmoline

Drowning in this bullet hell
Thoughts flying
Keeping me from you

Simplicity itself

It’s simple
I love you
It’s simple
You’re beautiful
It’s simple
We fit
It’s simple

Except its not simple
It never is
But complicated is better
It’s more real

Simple is a dream
The thing we say that
we want before we know
what we want

It’s difficult and messy and perfect for its imperfections.

 I don’t want a fairytale

I want what comes after the curtain fall What comes after happily ever after

I want all that you are
I’m not delusional, I’m just a romantic

Finding home

sleep
eyes closed heavy
pulled down from consciousness
Arms encircle
holding against the night
scents mingle
ease down
tensions release
blood and bone
safe

The scent of you
And the promise of another night
Together

Dipping below the faultline

Wash hands in broken glass
This smoke curls
Burns away blood

Consonant spill but
The waves never make it
To ears

Frantic replies
Ignored missives
Friends when needed

But just this smoke
And blood
Else times

Treatment like a cloudy needle
To make you feel…better
Used and discarded

Scattered in the shattered glass
You use to cut yourself
To remind

This is living

Reading tea leaves

The mercurial kiss of stone
Carves me down
Tracing petals
Fall, rushing
Sigils drawn in my bones

Our lips meet, soft and welcome
Missing your fingertips every day
Phantom dreams
Of what we’ve yet to share

Tracing patterns in heather
No touch the last