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I whisper the words of prayer
To the setting sun,
Joyous that it departs the sky

Night is falling
And I am undone
Unraveling out to the edges
A thousand thousand strands
Pressing against the borders of the flesh
Pressure building until I explode

Expanding out to the infinite stars
I connect to it all
The vastness of space wraps me up
Warmth against the cooling earth

Each being living, feeling
Slow shudder in birth and spinning down
Cells dying and burning in rebirth
Each moment
Each minute
Each second until time is lost

The clarity
The cresting of apogee
The melancholy the moment before the fall

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Frigid notes, pouring down
Caress of sun through dying trees
Sight less eyes
Drifting beneath a lie both
Sonorous and alluring
Forgotten, grounded in summer mourning

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Amid willow and boughs
songs whistling through dead trees
the lies we tell take root
and deep into us they flourish
they bloom and become real
battered
broken
drifting in dreams too often spoken
what i’ve become
what I’ll never be again
but still I cannot forget
what i was, when the journey began

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I’m afraid
afraid that in exposing a personal truth I am in fact exposing those I wish to protect
relationships I wish to safeguard.
Do I write it out of ego
self sabotage or bravery
perhaps bound and determined to spin out
I am tearing myself apart again
She safeguards herself but it’s too late for me
do I now destroy all else in some reckless attempt to win back what was never mine
each time is a roll of loaded dice with Leonard Cohen
one more bet
one more spin of the wheel
this time
this time it’ll be different.

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Music drifts across the room
Great clouds of notes jumbled
Mingling into a storm of minor arpeggios
Thunder of the bass drum
Rolling, a river, a torrent
A voice rising up
Clear of the chaos
Words just out of reach
Sounding like heartbreak
Another voice
And another
A chorus of hearts blood
Pouring across the hard packed earth
Bouncing and trembling
Waves crashing over, into
Then
…..
……
…….
……..
Silence so deafening
Only my blood rushing in my ears
The steady thump of arterial spray

Come on hot, to leave you cold

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Will you endure the horrible weight of my attention
Come on hot, to leave you cold
My worries fraught with tension

I am Lenny and you the bunny
Perhaps it’s best to run. 

My insecurities writ in permanence
My words are bound to creep.
I need an unsend button for my life.
Look past it all in patience, I implore
I’m not good at this

Confusion all dressed up

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I don’t know what it is
Why can I not stop thinking
Why do words written or spoken make me want to press the sound to my mouth. To taste them like gourmet chocolate.
don’t even need to hear
just want to be near
warmth sits next to me
enticing.
want to hold
shivers
wish I had a coat to offer.
don’t know what this is
don’t know
confusion
don’t want to scare
don’t want to press
should but I don’t want to hold back
if the moment arrives.
don’t want to dissapoint
one sided?
screwed up before
second chance
weathered storms before but almost destroyed me.
cannot keep myself from walking along the ledge.
know the rocks are jagged
much more likely to crash down on them than fly

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Let love break what time and cold has wrought
Found full measure
And in the breaking bought

A snifter of displeasure
A draught of summer wine
A drunken rhyme written in leisure
Found full flower in memoriam

A foolish man’s yearning
To brave the hedgerows, burning
Looks for safety in her arms

Come away bleeding,
Come away

But broken in the turning
And being broke, to see
The harm, the pain
The learning

Only those broken
Can ever be…

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Come, all broke and twisted
A vine too sour for wine
Timing missed and misted
A clock that knows no time

A lock not made for turning
A key left to rust
A door bereft and yearning
But still no shape of us

What wonders fade ‘er speaking
What joys to be shared
But all that’s love is tangled

Cut through and jump