Author: Pelgris
Slow drip of silence fades a beating heart
Each minute leads to another
And another
And another
And I can’t tell if that’s good or bad
Or if it matters
Since I keep showing up
And wondering if doing so is worth it
There used to be reasons
And people
Touches and promises
Words that seemed like they meant something
Used to think that I understood
Used to move with purpose
When my belief was that tomorrow wouldn’t likely come
Because when tomorrow is uncertain
Only now matters
But I’m past those red brick buildings
Which reeked of copper and still water
Past the places where beginnings end
Now uncharted
Three acts beyond final curtain
Just keep dancing
Wondering if the roads traveled
Have so imprinted
Become just one more scenic road
Never leading its way home
Song of the Day
Sort of a trying to be upbeat day and I came across this track. It’s a new favorite
The wind shifts, stark storm breaks
Wind gives way to whispers
Silent voices dripping soft words
Rush of blood from pounding heart
Obscura
Soft details
Bend and flake
Desperate reality
Senses fill
Can’t quite make the disconnect
Between action and consequence
Peeled tongue
Skinned knuckles
Anything to feel
Oppressive weight of empty
Slipped away
Stagnate pain shifting
Her smile wipes it away
But in remembrance
In truth
The falseness of this hope
Bleeds out faster than blood
And still
I know
It was real
Split Sky 16.2
There are shadows in the world and I am one of them
Only in the places between do I feel comfortable
Not quite city
Not quite wilderness
Not yet night
Not yet dawn
Stuck in a moment of transition
Changing
Re forming
Again and again
Putting the pieces back together in new configurations
Hoping each time
To find myself
In that easy camaraderie
That fierce ease
That kiss of proclamation
Not just that you are mine but that I am yours
Dash and damn consequences or barriers
To choose
To step fully into light or darkness
But here I am
On the periphery
Not by my choice
But
Perhaps
By my hand
Split Sky 16.1
What was is lost, what will be is unknown
We were all unbroken once
All dancing our way through lives without fear
Maybe I’ll break enough to be powder
And I’ll know what it is to be again unbroken
Different pieces suffused into a whole
Strong again
No longer sifting bloody hands through broken glass
Trying to get enough pieces to put back together
But whole
As this new thing
No longer trying to get back to a was
Seeing what is
And accepting a way forward
As this
My new self
Cold truths burn hottest
You step along my tongue
Dance along my spine
You sing songs
Caress my throat, fingers light
You envelope me
Then puff away
Passage marked in the linger
For I am a road
Not a home
Each step forward reopens a half healed wound
Each peel of laughter
A desolation
A sounding of the gulf
between what was and is
That yawning pit beneath my feat
Blades withdrawn
Blood slow seeping
Coagulating
A dance
forgotten
Lips
Speaking
What was will never be
