Rambling thoughts on love 

It’s as simple or as complicated as we make it. Loving another is always going to be messy. But it is always worth it. Even when it hurts. Even when it feels like your heart has been ripped out. It is always worth it. To cast yourself open into the yawning abyss, hoping their love will catch you. That your love, together, will halt the fall. I don’t know any other way to do it. Not and have it not take years. Ask any of my friends. For all that I am open, I’m a hard man to get to know. My friendships take years to form. And I love every one of my friends. And from most, I would try for a intimate relationship with, if that is what they wanted. I feel I’m rambling now. The point is that love, while painful, is always worth the pain. People create walls around their selves. Trying to keep out every possible hurt. But that keeps out most of everything. I speak from experience. I shut myself off. Turned off all the things that were painful and felt nothing. Blocked behind walls, behind doors, inside a bubble. Trapping myself inside, to protect from the pain.

It didn’t work. All the pain, the sorrow, all of it just built and built until it crushed through my walls. Battered them to pieces. There is no wall high enough or thick enough, no defense built well enough that it cannot be breached. The only choice becomes to deal with it.

Again, I seem to have lost the thread. Love is always worth the time, the pain. I have never been more happy than when expressing love. Never been more at peace than when I am holding someone I love in my arms.

12 thoughts on “Rambling thoughts on love 

    • I think I just have a problem with the phrasing “learn to love yourself”. Because I believe it is more about accepting and integrating all parts of yourself. So that when you look inward you are not finding separate pieces. It’s also possible I’ve walked so far down my paths that I forget what the beginning was like. Perhaps it is that the phrasing implies that it is advice but without concrete ideas to start with. Thanks for your response. I always appreciate it. Thank you!

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      • I have had to learn to love myself with my personal history of feeling in adequate, rejected and so on… as I’ve done this and yes ‘accepted’ the past, my difference facets etc… gratitude has come to the forefront and with it a love for existence and so your your expression of ‘inwards you are not finding separate pieces’… is a perfect expression … thank you for the time of your reply..

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