phrasing

Maybe this is just me

Pelgris2 Comments

I have in the past, said “I care deeply for you.” I said it meaning that I felt love. That I was in love. But I think it conveys the wrong message. I think it says that I feel something deep and strong and enduring, but I don’t know what it is and can’t put it into words.

And for me, it’s just not true.

For me, it’s cowardice. I said it because I was afraid of the answer. Afraid it was too soon, afraid of the potential rejection, afraid of what it meant if I said it.

For me, that phrase is a dodge. It is me hiding from the truth. And it’s painful and it leaves things unsaid that should be said. Should be known.

So now, the only time I will use it is as a part of this phrase: “I care deeply for you, you are amazing and lovely and I love you.”

Thought I’d share what I was thinking about.
Note: Not directed at anyone, it just got me thinking. 

The term ‘Bae’

Pelgris6 Comments

I don’t understand it. I get that it’s an acronym, but it’s used in ways that what it supposedly stands for is inaccurate. Supposedly stands for “before anyone else” or as a illiterate misspelling of baby. But the term seems to be used in contexts where it means “Beautiful as ever or everything”. As in he/she/it is so bae.

If it means the former, then I can only shrug my shoulders and say try to use a more meaningful term when describing those who are attractive or you have an emotional attachment to. Breathe costs nothing, and the right words at the right time could mean everything.

If it means the latter, then I take issue. Beautiful is not a term that should be used in every context to describe merely liking something. Beautiful means that this person/experience/thing has struck a resonating counterpoint in your soul, deep in your mind, in your heart. To reduce this to a acronym that is contextually used for like is blasphemy.

Or maybe it is used to describe beautiful but it feels like a cop-out. That by substituting a nonsense phrase you pull the teeth from the word instead of basking in the full words emotional context.

Each word has weight, has spin, has emotional context. To ignore that for cute, for simplicity, for expediency, is a foolish corruption of language. Perhaps this is an English speakers conceit. After all, this is a language that routinely mugs other languages and goes through their pockets for loose verbs.

As such it is always growing, evolving, changing. It has no set rules that are consistent. And as such we must be careful with how we manipulate the language. Maybe this is a rant only a poet or writer would care about. All I know is it was something I felt compelled to write at Three AM.