Rage and despair

So quickly it all turned from finding you
From finding passion beyond words
From hearing you say yes,
yes this passion
Yes we found each other
yes, you
To this deafening, rendering silence
This pain beyond measure
Past words, past responses
How could it be gone now as if it never was?

Belief is not a prereq

So, 5 days ago I had been dreaming about someone and I dreamed about them for three days. Dream walks don’t normally last that long and are generally not sequential. Dreams I have that are only dreams have an intangible cotton candy in the rain feel. This felt real. She disappeared halfway through night 4 and I’ve was unable to find her at all last night. It’s like looking through sand for a particular grain where before it’s like we were lodestones. There are aspects of my life that are insane from a strictly modern perspective. Eg Magic, spirit worlds, dreamwalking, soul constructs, wards, etc. And I realize I must seem nuts or at best odd, but I miss this person who I only knew in my dreams.