Sartre sometimes eats a sandwich

These things that we say are fallible
We exist as hyperbole
This presentation of the elevation
As if we are turned to eleven at all times
As if we are not sitting eating a muffin
As if the cool noise of a fan does not swing in the background
As if we were these over the top always on always always people
But sometimes I want to talk about Sartre and sometimes I want to make a nonsense noise, kiss you on the nose, and read.
Its not all life and death
Not all this and only this
We are not replacements for what we have
We are additions adding up to more

Gaze

Just give me these moments
To walk through the gray
I’m sitting here waiting
You’ll know that I’ll stay
But fear not tenacity or weighty attention
My touch is feather light
Or such is my intention

Jealous

No right to be jealous but I am
You aren’t mine
Not mine in the way I want you to be mine
Not mine, blood and bone
Not mine, whip and roan
Not mine but I want to know what you are doing all the time
Not mine but I’m jealous of anyone spending time with you

But the odd thing is that if you were mine
I’d not be jealous
I’d know you were coming home to me

Cycle the muse

Elevate
But in the eventual moment
They all walk away
Perhaps I’m the one that’s broken
Unable, despite everything,
To make them stay
Or is make the wrong word
AM I not able to demonstrate
Far enough
More than enough
That I am worth staying for

Love is another word for empty

Love is the breaking of your soul into tiny pieces
Pieces that fly away looking for a better home than your own desolate heart
Pieces you secretly hope will find their way back to you
Bringing with them the person they found a home in
That that person will be wanting to stay with these pieces and not looking to shove them in the junk drawer
But love is knowing those pieces are lost forever
And if they are smart and they are because they are you
They will stay gone

Eyes wide open

Waking up
Dreams are not what they seem
And I wander roads I haven’t traveled in years
And every heart I find is closed
Or mourning for its own losses
Reeling from its own hurts
In only mending am I broken

Vengeance sleeps the beast

A faltering blade
Shattered
Slipping through my fingers
Blood
… Everywhere

This feeling
This Elation
This Joy
… This… Nightmare