When trying to sleep I try everything
I try going to sleep at the same time
Having a drink
Not having a drink
Exercise
I’ve tried taking a shower immediately before bed
Tried reading in my office chair for so long I’m actively losing time
Tried watching TV
Tried listening to music
Cover on/cover off
Everything I’ve tried all gives me, at most, one nights rest
I keep changing things because sometimes one change works
But the only thing that consistently works is knowing that when I wake up
The person I love is gonna be beside me
Not every time
But a good 70% of the time
Or even that when I wake, very soon I will see them
I guess it makes me feel safe
A thought that actually makes me cry
And I don’t know why
Just that safe isn’t something I feel very often
Emotionally safe and maybe a bit physically safe
I miss that
Sleeping is one of the prime factors for keeping my depression away
But I guess,
I’ll try something new
It can be my world premiere
Exclusive event
Pelgris 