February

Rivers
Blood soaked dreary memories stained
Tear soaked carpet
moaning
Pressure a thin reminder of rain soaked shirts clinging to skin
Hiding tears amidst storm
losing each other

Cold soaked bones
touch me
I am drowning
A foot away
a lifetime
choices I cannot make

That was then and now
alone
dealing with the aftermath
Purpose to sever
in cease
in ruin
to swallow the sun
Though twilight break
and souls damaged by the dreaming
dissolve into dust

This blood
drips from metal blade
drunk down by ground thirsty for life

Sipping the stream
cool water against the back of my throat
pain leeches away
Replaced by floating
in the static emptiness
consumed morsel by morsel
until
I am empty

Slinking towards the dawn cold
seeping into bones made brittle
etched by the passage of seconds
voice pulled out to shout in glorious triumph
lost amidst the grinding gears
winding down to infinity

You murmured and snuggled against me
a rare and precious moment of vulnerability
mine, yours, together?
a dream?

Lost in the drift
slit open blood spills out
please
…….
it’s much simpler than this slow leak of sand as hours and days pass without your words
your voice
despair insinuates in dulcet tones, “who would ever want you?”

Yet on waking effervescence weaves its way through
the darkness but a shadow of approaching future
small translation errors in perception

From which
Faltering thoughts connect to every desire
promises realized and hopes cede ground to reality until eyes burst
waking
my brain
the liar

A black sun swells on the horizon bringing heat
false darkness swallows everything
lost, unforgiving
paths and doors disappear
trapped bereft of choice

Cold filters past defenses
only the warmth of you is sufficient to stave off the numbness
the thought of us
locked in deep embrace
Followed step by step into desired future
or time and universe make mock
all slipping from our grasp
before eyes lock
before beginning removes doubt

Or cast aside concern
dance madness in reverie
spilling minutes
sing our joy
to a moon hung heavy with ecstasy
breathed in through each pore

A journey made present in blood and flesh
give me your hand
I’ll give you my heart
moving into the dawn or dusk
only us together matters

Distance or times illusion
dream us awake
more than a find
a fit
last remnants of darkness fading
in the unrelenting light
of a single deep blue eye

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