Turbulent heart

Your song seeps in, moving through my blood, wrapping itself around my heart.

This rhythm holds me to brighter smiles and upturned eyes, grace written in the moue of lips and tone made madness of love, though burning set fire to coils and snap, synapse lapse,

break bread in dreaming but no salt to be had, the wants of memory and a spent shell casing pinging against concrete steps, finality in the cymbal crash, in the sodden thump and cascade, never more,

but the ravens merely hungry and doesn’t want discussion,

drape the sanity like gauze, easily ripped away when it’s purpose conflicts with the grey light of dawn and the question on your lips.

Cast me out but let me fly, though I perch outside your door or bake me in and I mistake the warmth for the sun, flick ash and sand and watch world’s turn but only this once

Say that you are mine and wake me, a dreamer trapped in the dreaming, last relevant elevator pitch meeting,

let passion claim madness, let hope claim strength, let peace weep pain or merely love me, as I love you

Not so casual confidence

When you are clothed in the armor of your own self confidence, you belong anywhere. It’s in your step, in your swagger. You project out that you are cool, confident and a bit dangerous.

I’ve dined in 5 star restaurants, been upgraded to suites. The key is to smile slightly at everyone, like the world is good and it couldn’t be otherwise. And when someone impedes your path, be calm, be polite but be firm.

If polite and firm, work, that is preferable but if no other choice is given then you will need to be less than kind. This isn’t being overbearing. This is standing up for yourself. If you act with confidence and as if you belong then that is how others see you.

Whatever that doubting voice in your head is saying, ignore it as best you can. It is lying most times and when it’s not, it’s trapping you. Sometimes our brains are just abusive assholes who insist they are just trying to help.