What am I here in shatters and bows
Run rampant down the jungles edge
Give voice to the dappled fog
And mists reception.
Drink down your sound and heat
Hesitate at softest touch
Lose courage in the minutes
Mind turned round n round
Caught in the maelstrom of ends beginning
Desires war in attrition
A past familiar comfort stands facing grandiose romantic heart.
Paths trod before speak solace and home
But hopes true glimmer beckons me on.

Note: this one is spoken word, it’s all in the delivery.

She was the fire, and I the flame
And we danced
And we danced

Beauty is in the moment
The promise of light in the darkness
A flare against the dying strands of sunset
Giving form to flesh
Reburned
Reborn in the echo chamber of causality

Baggage grown lighter
The past gives up its grip
Allowing new pains
New hopes amongst the wreckage

An unfinished poem
For an unfinished life

Friends, oh friends, let’s be friends
Sounds good, seems fine
But friends, oh friends
You start it in honesty.
Friends, good friends
Secrets and miseries
shared
time passes
Friends, just friends
Each day a cut
Tiny, infinitesimal
You don’t notice as your lungs fill up with blood.
Friends, oh friends, let’s be friends
It’s anguish and agony
I draw the poison out until you’re free
While I languish in a prison of my own design
Friends, only friends
I desire more of you
So I might foolishly walk that path,
Your earnest eyes still burn me
Asking questions
I don’t need the excuse.
I’d talk for days just to see your eyes on mine.
To hear your soft replies.
Only friends, just friends

She dances through the silences
A ghost on the periphery
A sadness deep enough to hold

Her words tap, tap against me
Like a bird cracking open a seed
With a sharp intake of air
Courage making overbold

I read false witness
But cannot bare it
I can only shout out loud
And hope she hears

“A whisper is forbidden” I whisper.

My heart knows who it wants.

Thought this year, heralded by a storm would be my year.
And it was for a time

Walking in roses and wine
Loves edifice
And works rhyme
All moving together in 4/4 time

Beautiful and crystalline
Sun exposure revealing it all
Composed of lattice steel
Held together by the thinnest framework
Of flaked snow

Joints melting
The chance meeting of point to point stemming the fall
Gravity pulling it and me down
The slow, inexorable crash of hopes beginning

It all began so beautifully

Whatever you want from me, I won’t see
I constructed my world to compensate for my lack of vision
I want to see, I do
But I’m oblivious.
I can see hierarchies and weaknesses, I can tell you within hours, if not minutes the character of someone I meet.
But you, I can’t see you.
Say something, please, say something
I’m blind when my own heart is on the line

When you walked away
I was elated
an existence abated and full

When you walked away
it was simple
you didn’t want me
no other answer needed

When you walked away
my choices made for me
my hopes lost in dreaming
Intensity and honesty

When when you walked away
i crowed it to the heavens
and decried the only faults I could
used as leverage
unsteady counterbalance
to a bruised heart

When you walked away

I am pains’ pleasure and loves demise
A heart full of longing
Engorged, enraptured by carnality

Each night a new twist, a new flick, a new chain
Buried in it, burning in it

Knowing it diminishes me
Holding out, saying no
Until the only answer is yes

Yes, fill me with your scent, musk and sweat, sandalwood and smoke
Yes, drown me in skin, hands and lips, tongue, seeking, hot, wet and unerring
Yes, flick the lash, bind me tight
Let the burn of aching dissolve the ache
Submit to me our submission
Little is forbidden and limits are for the weak
Until I’m drifting, we’re drifting

Until release but no relief
Just a dull emptiness
I’m gone, you’re gone by morning
And I’m still empty
Not tonight, not again
The lies we tell ourselves.