Too tired for laughter

Waiting for the hammer fall
Anxiety cripples
Stress piled on stress makes mistakes
And each mistake feeds the certainty that job loss is around the corner
In a economy not hiring
Isolation becomes depression
Sleeping all the time
Uncomfortable in my own skin
Wanting extended conversations about nothing
About everything
White noise
Heavy heart

5 thoughts on “Too tired for laughter

  1. Pelgris April 16, 2020 / 3:57 am

    I appreciate your time and your sentiment, however I do not feel comfortable allowing a comment to be posted publicly which points to Christianity. While I appreciate your faith, it is not one I hold. I do thank you for reading and for feeling a resonance that led to your comment. I hope you understand.


    • chantilly1999 April 16, 2020 / 4:09 am

      I hope I do 😉


    • Pelgris April 16, 2020 / 4:26 am

      You are most welcome, though I feel odd being thanked for being. But I do appreciate you.

      Liked by 1 person

  2. Pelgris April 17, 2020 / 6:50 am

    A friend gave me to understand that you may not understand what I mean. And that is attributable to some things that I don’t typically share

    You’d have to understand the more specific aspects of my faith.
    1. I’m pagan
    2. There is no creator being in my faith
    3. Any being that pretends to being a creator is seen as trying to dupe followers.

    Now I get that this isn’t a mainstream or even normal variations of mainstream thought.

    So I try to step lightly. But telling me that what I do is being faithful to what to me is essentially a liar and deceiver is going to elicit a reaction. And moreover, presenting that i was being faithful to my followers and humanity, all good and I accepted that compliment. But to then attribute that to some being is irksome

    I hope that clears things up.


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