Musings of a hard working writer

Do you ever sit back and think, “Fuck. I don’t know what I’m doing.”

Every time I finish a story or a project, I sit down and think about what’s next. The last project is the past. I’ll direct people to it. But in my head, it’s over and I’m thinking about what is next. And I’m freaking out. Because I don’t know what comes next. I have no idea what I’ll write. And after a year and a half of writing and recording, I am either done or I just don’t know where the story goes from here. And I honestly don’t know which scares me more. That I’m done or that I have no idea what I’m doing next.

It’s not writer’s block. I wish it was. That I can work through. It’s idea block. That’s all I need. An idea.

There’s the Pel and Sara story and a poetry compilation I want to put together. But what from there?

7 thoughts on “Musings of a hard working writer

  1. This is the cycle of a writer. Here’s how it usually works for me. Idea, plotting (depending on the complexity, I’ll experience times of serious brainstorming, and moments of brilliance), beginning writing — these things are the writer high, the “I’m a genius” mindset — then mid-writing (is this as bad as I think it is, did I remember to do this or that?) — writer low — end writing (huzzah! It’s done!) — writer high — editing, post-production (when is this going to be over?) — neutral — and release (it’s done, celebrate!). Then, before you can revel in the high, you drop with the, “oh shit, what’s next?” moment.

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    • The best I get is “This works, I think.” and it’s probably not surprising but I do almost no editing. Or rather I edit as I go. When I put it out there, I’m not even thinking about it anymore except to tag it. I’m just waiting to write the next piece. It’s strange writing serialized. In some ways you come to depend on the timing/pacing itself as a hidden character. The anticipation of what’s coming. It’s like I was supported by my publish schedule and now I don’t know what to do with myself.

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