It’s odd what a honest conversation will get you when the blinders have been taken off. I tend to blame myself for awkwardness in a relationship. It is something I am working on. I apologize if I think I have offended and check with the other person. If they are being as open and honest as I’m trying to be then it’s good. If not, then it’s not great. So, sometimes game playing seems to me like a product of my making a misstep. That is how I interpret it. If the other person does not say that it wasn’t a misstep and lay it out for me, I’ll never really understand it. But once the blinders are off, I will see it immediately. The only reason I didn’t see it before was because it was my relationship. In others I can see the dance, each step that it takes, and how it will play out. If I’m paying attention. But in my relationships I can be blind. I try to follow my heart. Which is a good thing, but it can lead me down blind alleys.
I’ll never stop loving the person. I’ve never stopped loving any of those that I fell for. It’s just my nature. But it won’t rule me. The passion gets replaced by reason and a feeling of fondness. I will never be as blind with them again. Which is a shame. I rather like myself in full romantic fervor. And can we be friends? Maybe but not right away. Hit me up in six months or so. You can start at the associate level like everyone else.
Pelgris 