One of the fundamental aspects of my personality is to project an unwarranted optimism onto any relationship that has positive tones. That is the experience is more neutral to positive than negative. This leads me to make assumptions and take actions that are premature or foolhardy. Generally, these actions lead to the dissolution of the relationship. This knowledge also means that in those instances where I am extremely interested in someone I will take one of two divergent courses. Either I will be way over the top romantic and, in general, chase them away by being too serious too soon. Or I will slow play, try to establish friendship, the problem there is that for me this is agony and even should the method bear fruit, I will be reluctant to sacrifice the little emotional crumbs for a chance at something greater. It feels like I can’t win for losing. That any course I take ends in failure and the breaking.

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