Thoughts after,

So I have this thing, and I’m sure I’m not alone, or maybe I am but there is this thing that my brain starts to do after a date or really when anything good happens. My brain starts to analyze. And I say my brain and distance myself because I am consciously saying to myself, “don’t do this. I guarantee that you are misreading this. Stop, please stop.” But does it stop? No it does not. It will go over every word, every gesture, every touch and just rip it apart looking for some hidden meaning and, if it can’t find one, starts to whisper things that I think, that I hope is bullshit. But that’s the trap, right? They sound almost true. And in sounding almost true, we think….maybe. And it will start small and by the end you are crippled with self doubt.

But I digress, maybe sleep will help.

I feel relaxed for the first time in a while. That has to be a good result. Let’s hope for more, because that’s what I do.

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