The bleakness of hope

I’ve been trying not to get here for a long time. I just don’t see a way past this pain. Every ray of hope becomes a lance to my heart. Every turn on the wheel gives a chance that never resolves itself. I’m so alone and I can’t find my way out. I can help others but never myself. My choices only lead to more pain. I can barely breathe. And I wish that I just wasn’t.

One thought on “The bleakness of hope

  1. Reading this hurts me heart. We talk so often and you never give me your pain, always inquiring as to mine. Why is that? 😦 Please know that I’m always a beep away. You’re such a ray of light to me and I’m pained that I don’t get the opportunity to return the gift.

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