The bleakness of hope

I’ve been trying not to get here for a long time. I just don’t see a way past this pain. Every ray of hope becomes a lance to my heart. Every turn on the wheel gives a chance that never resolves itself. I’m so alone and I can’t find my way out. I can help others but never myself. My choices only lead to more pain. I can barely breathe. And I wish that I just wasn’t.

One thought on “The bleakness of hope

  1. emdimensional May 11, 2017 / 8:51 pm

    Reading this hurts me heart. We talk so often and you never give me your pain, always inquiring as to mine. Why is that? 😦 Please know that I’m always a beep away. You’re such a ray of light to me and I’m pained that I don’t get the opportunity to return the gift.

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