I’m an idiot 

Pelgris

I have never been great at not pushing. I always want one step more than I have. One step more than is warranted. One step more. 

I can’t stop it on my own. If you tell me to stop. To slow down. To calm down. I will. I need to be told, verbally, written, whatever. Someone needs to say, “You’re doing it again.” 

And I’ll say, “Oh, I hadn’t realized.”

Not that I won’t see it on my own, but only when it’s too late or almost too late. 

So, that’s one of the ways that I’m an idiot. 

11 thoughts on “I’m an idiot ”

  1. emdimensional's avatar emdimensional March 18, 2017 / 10:16 am

    I don’t like hearing people call themselves names like that. You might have recognized that you sometimes exhibit behavior that you don’t like, but YOU are not an idiot.

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    • Pelgris's avatar Pelgris March 18, 2017 / 11:56 am

      I don’t like the results of the behavior. The behavior itself is what makes me a romantic. But if I push past boundaries, one’s not clearly defined, I must be reined in. I cannot see that I am causing harm, only that they are unhappy, maybe, and so I push harder, and harder trying to figure out what, just the parameters of the situation

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      • emdimensional's avatar emdimensional March 18, 2017 / 11:59 am

        I don’t know… I think when there is a mutual desire to communicate and truly understand each other this isn’t a negative, but just a manifestation of the sortof pigheaded stickwithitness that is common in Dominants (and communicative submissives for that matter.)

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