I walked into work and saw what looked like a kool-aid packet on my desk. I thought nothing of it and for several hours it just sat there. I took a look and it was fun dip, themed for valentine’s day from her. What does this mean? A conciliatory gesture? Some kind of olive branch. It ached to see even this little gesture from her. But no words, just her name. I hoped she didn’t think “it’s been long enough, try to reconnect?!” she hadn’t, she gave them to everyone and didn’t that hurt worse? That I mean so little, that I’m just like everyone else. I would have preferred nothing to this. And my mind keeps going over it, she gave me cherry and everyone else seemed to get razzle berry, does that mean something? I’m grasping at straws looking for any meaning, any chance. This is what prompted “I want… (obverse)”. I’m not in the same place I was but you blindside me 2 days before Valentines day and I’m going to have a reaction.