Pelgris

I have been insular for a long time. I have a strange impulse (to me it feels strange) to reach out and text or talk to her.  Even though we are essentially waiting for her schedule to free up and I know that,  and I know there is nothing really to be done about it.  I still feel this desire to reach out and touch base with her.  Like I’m not sure if she’s real.  And even though it’s via text, to somehow hear her voice.  Is that cloyingly sweet or just emotionally honest?